Prayers

Not everyone believes in prayer  Not everyone who believes in prayer has the same belief about it either.  Some people think that God hears your prayers.  Some think that prayer is strictly traditional.  Think of all the different ways people pray.  Sometimes they are memorized prayers, but other times they are less structured.  Personally, I believe that God not only hears every prayer but he also answers them.  For at least the last two or three weeks I have been agonizing over something that would possibly lead to the loss of a friendship.  Because of how I am, I can not simply act on anger or hurt without thinking it through first to make sure I am doing the right thing.  However, in my case this time, the more I thought about my dilemma, the more confused and hurt I became.  I was soon to a point of feeling incredibly tied up and could  not come to any right decision.  There was only one thing left I could think of to do to fix the pain inside of me that was getting worse by the day.  That night when I got on my knees to pray to my God I poured out my heart to him.  I explained that I was feeling a lot of pain and could no longer control it.  I told Him about how helpless I felt in my situation.  I told him that this could potentially make my wedding day less special than it should be, and I wanted to be absolutely, ridiculously happy on that day.  I explained how much weight I felt pressing on me.  Finally, I asked if He could take my burden away.  I do not do this very often.  I feel like trials make you stronger and can lead to happiness, but this one was too much for me at this time.  He knew it too, because the next morning when I woke up I felt utterly weightless.  I was relaxed and happy.  I literally felt like two big hands had previously been squeezing my lungs and overnight had disappeared.  To some people that small thing would not convince them that God is real and cares deeply about them, but I know without a shadow of a doubt that God loves me and still performs miracles for us when we need it.  He cares about tiny problems just as much as big ones.  You do not need to wait until you are in deep problems to pray to your God.  He will listen to even the smallest query if it means a lot to you.  No one else knows your heart better than He does, so he will always do what is best for you.  This week I experienced a tiny miracle that made me feel such powerful love from God.  If no one else in the world loves me, I know my God still will.