New Year's Resolutions

I never really believed in setting New Years Resolutions.  There shouldn't be one time when you set goals.  You should set them all year round.  However, this year feels different to me, maybe because we moved, or because there are so many things I want to overcome.  Whatever the reason is, this year feels like a clean slate.  Here are the things I want to improve:

1. I want to get back into shape.  Someone told me as a joke the other day that after you have a baby you are in shape, just a different one than before.  True.  But that's no excuse for me.  I have run a marathon.  I used to be able to consistently run a mile under 7 minutes.  I once got my mile time down to 6:20.  That would be unheard of now.  I'm not saying I want to run that fast again (though that would be awesome).  I just want to be able to run a 10k without walking.  It will take time, but hey, I have a year.  Preferably I would like to be able to do this by my birthday in July though.

2. I am going to start a business.  I have wanted to start selling my art for a while now.  I recall thinking that I could have an online store up and running by this time LAST year.  However, I chickened out and made excuses about not feeling well from being pregnant.  Now I have a baby, so finding time will be even harder, but I am making time.  I'll have the store up by the end of the month (as to give me time to make some more things to post) and if it's in our budget this Summer I would love to go to some craft fairs and sell art.

3.  I'm going back on my gluten-free diet.  I feel horrible.  I'm constantly bloated, I'm exhausted, my anxiety levels have gone through the roof, my skin is so dry and itchy that my lips look like I have cold sores surrounding them, and I keep getting sick.  This year I'm going back on my diet the way I did it before: save the gluten foods for times when I go out to dinner or ward activities that don't have anything I can't eat.  Otherwise, no cheating.

These are my three main goals, but they all are related.  I want to learn to control my environment.  Fear of inadequacy rules my life.  I never feel like I am good enough.  I will never let anything or anyone make me feel otherwise again.  It's a waste of time trying to please everyone else, so I'm going to work on these three things to push me out of my comfort zone.  If I can control what is going on inside of me I will be able to control how I react to things that happen in my life in this time of big changes and challenges.  Happy New Year to everyone and I hope we all improve together!